What if...

I found this poem that couldn't describe best how I have felt for the past two months....written by unknown..

If I could turn back time, and tell you how much I miss you, would you listen? What if I tell you how much you mean to me would you look at me and pass? If I open up my heart to you and tell you my most precious secret that I never dare to tell anyone, would you ignore me? What if I tell you that I have never stopped loving you.


If I could turn back time my love I would tell you  everything from my heart that it was a big mistake letting you go, from the day you left you took a part of my heart with you and I never be the same. I would tell you that you are the love of my life the air that I need to breathe and I need you in my life more than I could ever imagine.


If I could turn back time I would tell you that how much I need you and appreciate you  for being in my life, I would tell you am sorry letting you down  and never be there for you my love. Without out you is like a stove without gas, if I could turn back time I would tell you that I love you so much and I was a fool to let you go…

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Self Reflection...

With a blink of my eyes four year has gone by...So much to as what has happen and what didn't happen.  The past...The future...and most importantly the present...They are like parallel universe that is constantly living among us.  We live our life in the present trying to hard to not make the same mistake from the past and improve them for the future so we will not do the same wrong again.  With so much focusing on the past and worrying about the future...are we really living in the present?  Is the present really a present from the higher being since we are still breathing?

The past...are now nothing more than memories of the good and bad.  We tend to focus on the bad and seldomly think of the good that have happened to us.  Is being human really that shallow?  My story starts here...taking detour again and again and again...walking on a straight pathway all along till there is a split road ahead..left or right...chose left...walking the left path lead me no where to be lost...the person that walks with me are no longer here with me in the path...walking in the left path left me with nothing but found something that I thought is everything...is it illusion?  is it out of desperation of losing my way that I actually thought this is the light that I have been seeking since I chose to take the left path?

Sweetness to life is what I seek so every little things that happen I'll blow it up to make it seem huge since bitterness is everywhere sweetness is precious.  Optical illusion some will call it...don't we all need that sometimes?  When all sweetness are gone we second guess ourselve that what if?  what if I have choosen the right path instead of the left?  Will i be happier then since I will be with the person I started walking with...will it? 

What if....what if is a very scary question that we can ask ourselve.  If not careful we will lose ourselve from what if...